I will wait for the day,

When I can finally tell you,

That I love you.

When I wouldn’t feel myself shattered,

Evaporated,

Disappearing. 

All the boundaries breaking.

Shame and despair

Overflowing.

I will tell you, 

How I see you. 

The shades cast under the sun,

The glares blended into the gentle moonlight, 

The cruelty of the deep ocean,

The mercy of the icy mountain.

I embrace you,
While walking away from you. 

I will tell you,

How I see myself.

Heart softening, 

Melting,

Opening and Emptied.

But I keep going, 

I am inspired, I am living.  

Even after nightmares of tears, 

Overwhelmed my longing being.

Because I am waiting for the day,

When I will finally tell you,

That I love and loved you.

When I can tell it as a fairy tale, 

And secretly replace the girl’s name

With my own. 

When I can afford this love known.  

When I can truly love you.